im very weird and stupid. i dont like getting caught up in the present. my mentality often tells me that the present isn't good. i'm constantly hoping for a better future, and thinking about how good things were in the past. what i often forget is that the present is a creation of the past, and the future is the creation of the present.

there's a bit of a paradox here then. if i consider the past to be good, then the present must be good. if i'm hoping for a better future, then i better be making the present good too.

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i really hope to meet somebody that can understand me. but nobody's going to understand me if we dont take the time and the effort. i've been looking for somebody that would understand me right away and often got ahead of myself. how stupid of me to have realized this just recently......