don't limit yourself

its almost 4 in the morn, got a mid term tomorrow but i cant sleep. a lot of thoughts running through my head. but a certain thought has been keeping me up... and i want to write it down to see how i feel about it later.

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often times, people say they cant do this, they cant do that because they say they're a certain way. "because im like this". they think they know, but they have no idea. essentially, they have no idea because they never broke out of their shell and opened themselves up to new thoughts and ideas. see, when you open up yourself to something new, you are creating an incredible amount of opportunities-- opportunities for greater happiness. once you have opened yourself up and dwelled in this new state of mind, you'll have learned so much in the process. and the best part is, you can always choose to go back if you feel like its not right. maybe this new thing may not have worked out, but you realized that the old way, what you've kept for so long, is that much more valuable. you can cherish it, and mold it to something even better. and i dont think i have to really explain the benefits of realizing that something new is actually good because we all know how it feels. maybe i'll add that trying something new doesn't necessarily mean losing something of the past.

and i dont know how much this has to do with what i've stated so far, but it takes human brains about 2-3 weeks to break out of habits, or to create new habits, although it takes some dedication. i find this interesting.


ah maybe i'll be able to sleep now. i wonder who'll ever read this

oh h h h

The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. I can say without hesitation that this book changed my life, when I read it in the beginning of my junior year when I felt like Robert Frost, standing between a diverging road bla bla bla u get the point lol.

anyways, i was looking for a sick quote put on my facebook so i went on google and typed in "the alchemist quotes" and in just that 10-15 minutes i was more enlightened than any other time in 2010.

http://www.allgreatquotes.com/alchemist_quotes2.shtml

enjoy

im very weird and stupid. i dont like getting caught up in the present. my mentality often tells me that the present isn't good. i'm constantly hoping for a better future, and thinking about how good things were in the past. what i often forget is that the present is a creation of the past, and the future is the creation of the present.

there's a bit of a paradox here then. if i consider the past to be good, then the present must be good. if i'm hoping for a better future, then i better be making the present good too.

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i really hope to meet somebody that can understand me. but nobody's going to understand me if we dont take the time and the effort. i've been looking for somebody that would understand me right away and often got ahead of myself. how stupid of me to have realized this just recently......

i had a dream. it was about me playing basketball.......... i sucked really badly. but at the same time my ankle was hurting. so i announced to my peeps that my ankle had caused me to play badly.
then somebody called me out and said "why are you always giving excuses?"

this is true. i realized that i often give excuses in general when me just shutting my mouth and not saying anything would serve just as well.
but the thing that others dont know is that i do this as a reassurance to myself, not others. i don't think there are too many things that i'm just naturally bad at and thats it. i think that no matter what it is, if i give some dedication, at least i wouldnt "suck". so if i were to be bad at anything, it's probably by choice and im not about to let that happen.

so this is what i said in response in my dream: "because I know i can do better."