i had a dream. it was about me playing basketball.......... i sucked really badly. but at the same time my ankle was hurting. so i announced to my peeps that my ankle had caused me to play badly.
then somebody called me out and said "why are you always giving excuses?"

this is true. i realized that i often give excuses in general when me just shutting my mouth and not saying anything would serve just as well.
but the thing that others dont know is that i do this as a reassurance to myself, not others. i don't think there are too many things that i'm just naturally bad at and thats it. i think that no matter what it is, if i give some dedication, at least i wouldnt "suck". so if i were to be bad at anything, it's probably by choice and im not about to let that happen.

so this is what i said in response in my dream: "because I know i can do better."