i was just reading through my old posts and realized that from time to time i am a pretty thoughtful person. my actions and spoken words often show simplicity but i think i have these moments when my mind is engulfed in thoughts and ideas. it helps me feel better to read these posts because i wrote most of them when my mind was SPARKED and oozing with self-reflection and determination.

lately my days have been going fast. so fast that i cant believe winter quarter is half way done and that its been a month since i asked a girl to be mine. school is keeping me busy as hell, but i feel like this is only because i'm not being as productive as i used to be. my mind has been so full of things, more than ever, but because its scattered around everywhere that nothing concrete is really set. i realize that this is why i havnt been writing on this.

being in a relationship is truly a crazy thing. it has changed me in ways i could never have imagined. starting from constantly thinking about how to keep this girl interested to striving to reassure that we're in this for the benefit of both of us, to worries that this might end or that we might change. commitment is a big thing for me. making that commitment takes a lot of thinking and time, but once its made i'm going to do my best to not deviate from my original intentions...

one of the nicest thing about being in a relationship is, in addition to the satisfaction of giving and receiving, slowly but surely realizing the breaking down of personal barriers. in other words... getting to know each other better and being more comfortable. i realize that im not a too comfortable person to be around but hey, i'm really trying.... very hard.

well i guess this post naturally shows what (more like "who") has been on my mind the most recently. and its not bad at all :)